Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Only Me ruchi: Do u enjoy driving or looking out of the window ?...
Do u enjoy driving or looking out of the window ?
we all associate pretty well with all the quotes that talk about life being this great journey... the experiences, the various milestones, taking command on our own life and many more such things. So essentially, we are trying to correlate life to a beautiful or a bumpy - long drive...isn't it? The comparison is valid if you know to drive. In case you do know to drive and u r the one on the wheel for the ride of your life, well then we have a story. A story written, directed, acted by you. This analogy holds true for you and the associated thoughts hold true for you too.
Although if you have been the one associating with the second part of the title - looking out of the window kinds, then this analogy doesn't hold good for obviously! Then you are on your life journey on someone Else's route. The person whosoever, u gave the right to drive ur life is on a journey of his/her life and u seem to be a co-passenger just hitch hiking with no directions of your own, no milestones of your own, no speed breakers to deal with, no red, green signals, no junctions - no no ... not totally true, they will be there, but not yours, not at your time, they will surely be there but they are all borrowed or forced emotions & experiences of life - from the person whose behind the wheel for your life to go on!
I am not convinced for an argument with you to justify either. You know your situation the best. you are the one who made the choice, if u'll drive or if u'll enjoy the view! Even if there is something screaming from deep within that i don't like the view and i definitely din sign up for this route - still u r the person who gave the power the authority and the liberty to someone else to be the driver. What can i say... enjoy the view is all u can do! If you were too shy to take the risks and to deal with consequences of your own driving - too bad! Now the seat is taken...
The best part is some of us get addicted to not having to take a lot of decisions. Enjoying the view till it starts killing you, mile after mile. By the time u realize u & ur life have been hijacked, its again - too late! By the time this realization strikes the driver of your life too has got addicted to not only control his / her life - but also control your life. So now, if you insist to deboard - thinking u'll prob'lly not go on 100 Mile per hour but walk and walk on your own route, decide your own destination and make your own milestones - even though u might end up doing this walking & not driving - well too late - yet again!! cause not this beloved driver of yours is now not going to let u deboard - coz now suddenly the taste of power of ruling let alone ur own but someone Else's life is phenomenal..!!
The interesting thing is that those who are in fact in the driver seat - are confused too. Sometimes wondering when exactly did i claim to know the route?? They keep looking for the sign boards - someone, on the road of life - looking for a hitch hike so they have some company, someone they would eventually feel good about having ruled! They are not sure why is the road so bumpy... when would be the next stop, why am i the one driving, am i suppose to focus on the windshield or the rare view..?? like i said before - there is no right or wrong pick - u chose - u know the best...
The tricky one is when u knew for sure - that for good or for bad u wanna drive ur life, u know the route, u are prepared for all the speed brakes and pretty much aren't concerned about the sign boards. Then suddenly its like u fell asleep on the drive, and wen u wake up u have been safely placed on the pillion seat with someone else now driving ur life on ur route. Its all messed up! You have no clue wat happened on the way that suddenly ripped ur all ur strength away. The blueprint u carried with u at the start of the journey is no longer valid. You can scream, plead or cry now u are going to have to continue this journey at someone Else's directions. The route is changed, the desires no longer mean anything coz u no longer have the control... ! Looking out of the window was never your thing - but now that's all that can save u of the agony of having to see someone else drive ur life far far away...!
The beauty of it all is u never really lose control. Since, all that's happening to you is happening cause u asked for it, u chose it. No one is a victim of life itself. We all live the way we do cause somewhere deep within we have our reasons to live like that. if you have dreams but no courage to realize them - u won't ever live them! If you like to be ruled - u shall be ruled, if u r the one to take command of your own life - no matter if u showed courage half way thru - u shall be able to do so...!
Your life is a function of the choices u make and the situations u come across.
You chose - u live ur life, u look out of the window, or u go in the back seat and sleep! Life is all u ever wanted, u and only u signed up for wat u have.
Although if you have been the one associating with the second part of the title - looking out of the window kinds, then this analogy doesn't hold good for obviously! Then you are on your life journey on someone Else's route. The person whosoever, u gave the right to drive ur life is on a journey of his/her life and u seem to be a co-passenger just hitch hiking with no directions of your own, no milestones of your own, no speed breakers to deal with, no red, green signals, no junctions - no no ... not totally true, they will be there, but not yours, not at your time, they will surely be there but they are all borrowed or forced emotions & experiences of life - from the person whose behind the wheel for your life to go on!
I am not convinced for an argument with you to justify either. You know your situation the best. you are the one who made the choice, if u'll drive or if u'll enjoy the view! Even if there is something screaming from deep within that i don't like the view and i definitely din sign up for this route - still u r the person who gave the power the authority and the liberty to someone else to be the driver. What can i say... enjoy the view is all u can do! If you were too shy to take the risks and to deal with consequences of your own driving - too bad! Now the seat is taken...
The best part is some of us get addicted to not having to take a lot of decisions. Enjoying the view till it starts killing you, mile after mile. By the time u realize u & ur life have been hijacked, its again - too late! By the time this realization strikes the driver of your life too has got addicted to not only control his / her life - but also control your life. So now, if you insist to deboard - thinking u'll prob'lly not go on 100 Mile per hour but walk and walk on your own route, decide your own destination and make your own milestones - even though u might end up doing this walking & not driving - well too late - yet again!! cause not this beloved driver of yours is now not going to let u deboard - coz now suddenly the taste of power of ruling let alone ur own but someone Else's life is phenomenal..!!
The interesting thing is that those who are in fact in the driver seat - are confused too. Sometimes wondering when exactly did i claim to know the route?? They keep looking for the sign boards - someone, on the road of life - looking for a hitch hike so they have some company, someone they would eventually feel good about having ruled! They are not sure why is the road so bumpy... when would be the next stop, why am i the one driving, am i suppose to focus on the windshield or the rare view..?? like i said before - there is no right or wrong pick - u chose - u know the best...
The tricky one is when u knew for sure - that for good or for bad u wanna drive ur life, u know the route, u are prepared for all the speed brakes and pretty much aren't concerned about the sign boards. Then suddenly its like u fell asleep on the drive, and wen u wake up u have been safely placed on the pillion seat with someone else now driving ur life on ur route. Its all messed up! You have no clue wat happened on the way that suddenly ripped ur all ur strength away. The blueprint u carried with u at the start of the journey is no longer valid. You can scream, plead or cry now u are going to have to continue this journey at someone Else's directions. The route is changed, the desires no longer mean anything coz u no longer have the control... ! Looking out of the window was never your thing - but now that's all that can save u of the agony of having to see someone else drive ur life far far away...!
The beauty of it all is u never really lose control. Since, all that's happening to you is happening cause u asked for it, u chose it. No one is a victim of life itself. We all live the way we do cause somewhere deep within we have our reasons to live like that. if you have dreams but no courage to realize them - u won't ever live them! If you like to be ruled - u shall be ruled, if u r the one to take command of your own life - no matter if u showed courage half way thru - u shall be able to do so...!
Your life is a function of the choices u make and the situations u come across.
You chose - u live ur life, u look out of the window, or u go in the back seat and sleep! Life is all u ever wanted, u and only u signed up for wat u have.
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Only Me ruchi: who is your shoulder
Only Me ruchi: who is your shoulder: A shoulder to cry on…?? A shoulder to shoot from…?? Take whichever, u need someone else to let your emotions out. Be the emotion love or hat...
who is your shoulder
A shoulder to cry on…?? A shoulder to shoot from…?? Take whichever, u need someone else to let your emotions out. Be the emotion love or hate, pain or no pain, happy or sad.. u will always need a shoulder. Emotions have no value if u have no one to show them to. there is no fun in loving anyone, without that person knowing how crazed u have been for him/her... no fun hating anyone if u can’t show it... express it, at least talk about it to someone, if nothing else crib and blame it one someone, but never miss a chance to explain yourself and safe side yourself to ensure – u personally wouldn’t associate yourself with emotions as strong and as negative as “hatred”… it was an outcome of something beyond your control. So far… So good… The trouble is how to express without owning up the major emotional display!!
A simple way is to figure out someone to rest the case on, like we all do. we all have a shoulder - to cry on, for support when u are having some really difficult times, a shoulder to fire from…& for all ur blames to be safely planted on - like they say "the one who is still smiling after being in the craziest situation has someone in mind to be blamed." So you seek a shoulder to make some guy responsible for all the shit that happens in your life. Now this shoulder for blame - can be a situation, can be your luck, can very well be a person, can be God... u have plenty many options... !
The point is we are just too weak to deal with our own emotions. You keep looking for someone to validate them for you. Don’t be surprised; think about it – a simple situation – so how do u react when someone gives a u really grand compliment. Can you take it with ease – say thank you and be happy and move on!! No. Firstly, you’ll deny, u make all kinds of useless statements to deny probably the best compliment you have received in a long time – cause even before you have fully enjoyed it, u immediately start doubting yourself. You can’t believe it – it was about u J
Secondly, you’ll conveniently find a shoulder to rest the cause of why u were able to receive the compliment – u know… “it’s this color that brings a glow to my face,” u know… “I just think this new dress is really catchy…!!”
God!! Just say thank you – move on! It’s okay to look good, it’s normal to receive compliments. Why so awkward??
Well this was about a positive emotion – but when it comes to something negative and especially when you are the owner of the emotion – do u really voice it out – without any side bars? Can u express your anger as your own… can u express sadness and still own it up… Or deal with Loneliness… It’s okay to have these emotions – to express them and be comfortable with them.
If you are in fact experiencing a sad moment, day or phase in life – accept it. Deal with it. Maybe you would deal with it poorly, but denying would only complicate matters. You can’t hide or run from your own emotions, your own feelings. But nooooo… instead of assuming the responsibility of your own feelings u run and u run and u run faster to catch someone in the vicinity to blame it all on! So if you are sad – it’s because of some situation, somebody, some damn thing happened which was beyond your control. So the freaking misery was inflicted upon you since according to you by all means – u are immune to all emotions is how u’d rather pretend.
Why this need for a shoulder, why is that we can’t stand up to & express what we feel, why does u we treat our emotions like creepers that by design won’t be able to stand up on their own. They would always need something or someone to host their lives on just like a parasite to grow on. Why is there so much of awkwardness with oneself? Why does it make us so comfortable being able to blame things on someone why should u not say it with utmost honesty and not worry about what would they think about you!!
Looks like it’s all a function of the choices you make and the kind of social image u wish to maintain… So u are constantly busy managing your public profile – u’ll become so occupied in ensuring that others feel right about you, that in the process u completely, brutally ignore how do u feel about yourself! Does it feel suffocated – with all that’s trapped inside of you, do u feel burdened with the naked truths of your own life?
We have all read written and spoken about the games people play. We all like to be prepared for all the turbulence outside of us. What go unheard are the games we play with our selves. The way we keep looking down upon ourselves. Underestimating our own feelings is only step one to demeaning us that results into just the grand opening of inviting the rest of the world to do the same to you. One fine day when the realization strikes – u start questioning all that’s around you… why the hell am I going through all this. Who exactly gave someone – just about anyone – the right to make me feel so shitty!
Surprise Surprise!! Well you did. Knowingly or not “You” are the one who invited everyone, and gave everyone that right – and now you don’t how to stop the damn circus. You were the one who wasn’t comfortable being on the driver seat of your life. You were the one who looked for a shoulder to ventilate, a shoulder to fire thoughts from to label blames on. The day u assume responsibility of your own good bad ugly being, the true meaning of your living and believing – u shall be a happy person! Don’t know what constitutes your happiness quotient. But you would be a lot less burdened for sure.
Start today, start it at this very moment – all that’s happening in life are the various mesmerizing views of the fantastic journey of life, it’s not life in itself. See it, move on – else u’ll never reach the point that u actually began your journey for. Each emotion, each emotional experience is just one spot from the site seeing options of the holiday that’s called life.
See you at the top!
A simple way is to figure out someone to rest the case on, like we all do. we all have a shoulder - to cry on, for support when u are having some really difficult times, a shoulder to fire from…& for all ur blames to be safely planted on - like they say "the one who is still smiling after being in the craziest situation has someone in mind to be blamed." So you seek a shoulder to make some guy responsible for all the shit that happens in your life. Now this shoulder for blame - can be a situation, can be your luck, can very well be a person, can be God... u have plenty many options... !
The point is we are just too weak to deal with our own emotions. You keep looking for someone to validate them for you. Don’t be surprised; think about it – a simple situation – so how do u react when someone gives a u really grand compliment. Can you take it with ease – say thank you and be happy and move on!! No. Firstly, you’ll deny, u make all kinds of useless statements to deny probably the best compliment you have received in a long time – cause even before you have fully enjoyed it, u immediately start doubting yourself. You can’t believe it – it was about u J
Secondly, you’ll conveniently find a shoulder to rest the cause of why u were able to receive the compliment – u know… “it’s this color that brings a glow to my face,” u know… “I just think this new dress is really catchy…!!”
God!! Just say thank you – move on! It’s okay to look good, it’s normal to receive compliments. Why so awkward??
Well this was about a positive emotion – but when it comes to something negative and especially when you are the owner of the emotion – do u really voice it out – without any side bars? Can u express your anger as your own… can u express sadness and still own it up… Or deal with Loneliness… It’s okay to have these emotions – to express them and be comfortable with them.
If you are in fact experiencing a sad moment, day or phase in life – accept it. Deal with it. Maybe you would deal with it poorly, but denying would only complicate matters. You can’t hide or run from your own emotions, your own feelings. But nooooo… instead of assuming the responsibility of your own feelings u run and u run and u run faster to catch someone in the vicinity to blame it all on! So if you are sad – it’s because of some situation, somebody, some damn thing happened which was beyond your control. So the freaking misery was inflicted upon you since according to you by all means – u are immune to all emotions is how u’d rather pretend.
Why this need for a shoulder, why is that we can’t stand up to & express what we feel, why does u we treat our emotions like creepers that by design won’t be able to stand up on their own. They would always need something or someone to host their lives on just like a parasite to grow on. Why is there so much of awkwardness with oneself? Why does it make us so comfortable being able to blame things on someone why should u not say it with utmost honesty and not worry about what would they think about you!!
Looks like it’s all a function of the choices you make and the kind of social image u wish to maintain… So u are constantly busy managing your public profile – u’ll become so occupied in ensuring that others feel right about you, that in the process u completely, brutally ignore how do u feel about yourself! Does it feel suffocated – with all that’s trapped inside of you, do u feel burdened with the naked truths of your own life?
We have all read written and spoken about the games people play. We all like to be prepared for all the turbulence outside of us. What go unheard are the games we play with our selves. The way we keep looking down upon ourselves. Underestimating our own feelings is only step one to demeaning us that results into just the grand opening of inviting the rest of the world to do the same to you. One fine day when the realization strikes – u start questioning all that’s around you… why the hell am I going through all this. Who exactly gave someone – just about anyone – the right to make me feel so shitty!
Surprise Surprise!! Well you did. Knowingly or not “You” are the one who invited everyone, and gave everyone that right – and now you don’t how to stop the damn circus. You were the one who wasn’t comfortable being on the driver seat of your life. You were the one who looked for a shoulder to ventilate, a shoulder to fire thoughts from to label blames on. The day u assume responsibility of your own good bad ugly being, the true meaning of your living and believing – u shall be a happy person! Don’t know what constitutes your happiness quotient. But you would be a lot less burdened for sure.
Start today, start it at this very moment – all that’s happening in life are the various mesmerizing views of the fantastic journey of life, it’s not life in itself. See it, move on – else u’ll never reach the point that u actually began your journey for. Each emotion, each emotional experience is just one spot from the site seeing options of the holiday that’s called life.
See you at the top!
Saturday, January 21, 2012
if this was ur last chance...
The way we behave with people, we live our life and we deal with situations is as if everything is going to be as is for ever...! The shear feeling of permanence is the origin of all pain. Easier said than done, of course the toughest thing in life is to accept change. yea yea.. we all know all the good things about change and have all preached the acceptance of change to ourselves or to someone else in life. Think about the latest conversation you had with anyone to justify change, to justify a living with a loss, with a miss! By no means i say that ur intentions were cruel and not to help this person, but think about it with all genuinity,with an assurance of having the secret buried in your heart for ever, wud u do - as u preached??
We all know all life situations don't mean the same to all, we all carry our own respective baggage's & relate to each situation differently, yet what is preached is always what's ideal - the should have been's of life and not what one cud do with as much ease.. U scream, in an effort to pronounce your ideal self - to tell all that's worth hearing, worth preaching, worth living for! In the process u have already started a journey of drifting away from your own true being. Then comes a point where you seem completely disoriented from your situations and you no longer know the purpose of you being you.
Life is actually very simple, more or less the same for more or less everybody. Its a like a Christmas tree or a wedding gown. They are basically the same. They don't come in too many colors, and its only the decoration on the outside that make them look different... The outside is what in turn starts defining whats beneath..who owns it, and why does it look the way it does. The problem is we start associating our selves with the exterior so much that it starts becoming meaningful.
Strangely the exterior rules our being, our existence so muchh that you don't even realize when the remote control shifted from life to presentation of life. you tend to start getting governed by the way people wud know you than the way you know u'r self. You soon start worrying so much about all the perceptions about you and the loss of your focus from yourself - and ironically the overkill of the focus on your worldly self create this constant battle in you... of being lonely and yet paying so much attention to self!
What u really wish to connect with is with yourself and what u end up connecting with in all worldly ways is your projection of yourself. Now u can't cease to connect with your outer self cause that's become a way of life, and ur inner self keeps getting neglected. Think again, the standards that you set for someone else in life, are far higher than wat u cud do for yourself. cause there u hv the liberty of preaching all the right things without worrying to implement. so u become this fantastic person with all the bright ideas and wonderful suggestions, but no power, no control to guide your own life...!
We all know all life situations don't mean the same to all, we all carry our own respective baggage's & relate to each situation differently, yet what is preached is always what's ideal - the should have been's of life and not what one cud do with as much ease.. U scream, in an effort to pronounce your ideal self - to tell all that's worth hearing, worth preaching, worth living for! In the process u have already started a journey of drifting away from your own true being. Then comes a point where you seem completely disoriented from your situations and you no longer know the purpose of you being you.
Life is actually very simple, more or less the same for more or less everybody. Its a like a Christmas tree or a wedding gown. They are basically the same. They don't come in too many colors, and its only the decoration on the outside that make them look different... The outside is what in turn starts defining whats beneath..who owns it, and why does it look the way it does. The problem is we start associating our selves with the exterior so much that it starts becoming meaningful.
Strangely the exterior rules our being, our existence so muchh that you don't even realize when the remote control shifted from life to presentation of life. you tend to start getting governed by the way people wud know you than the way you know u'r self. You soon start worrying so much about all the perceptions about you and the loss of your focus from yourself - and ironically the overkill of the focus on your worldly self create this constant battle in you... of being lonely and yet paying so much attention to self!
What u really wish to connect with is with yourself and what u end up connecting with in all worldly ways is your projection of yourself. Now u can't cease to connect with your outer self cause that's become a way of life, and ur inner self keeps getting neglected. Think again, the standards that you set for someone else in life, are far higher than wat u cud do for yourself. cause there u hv the liberty of preaching all the right things without worrying to implement. so u become this fantastic person with all the bright ideas and wonderful suggestions, but no power, no control to guide your own life...!
Friday, January 13, 2012
Only Me ruchi: What's u'r poison??
Only Me ruchi: What's u'r poison??: No there is really no need to get quirky reading the title… it’s way past that time in life when u are still deciding on what drink, what s...
What's u'r poison??
No there is really no need to get quirky reading the title… it’s way past that time in life when u are still deciding on what drink, what style, what line suits u… there are times when u reach a stage where whether u like it or u don’t u do feel like it or don’t one does go meet head on with all that u were an expert in avoiding. Call it your fears; call it the passion that for all the right reasons you never pursued; love that u keep defining, redefining, finding, losing, missing, and ignoring; the dreams u always wanted to chase but again for all the right excuses u never did anything about; people, moments, memories, places, thoughts, and the list is long…
Ever stopped to think – why not! What makes u run away from certain things – what calls u closer! There is not a single person that you meet in life who you share your dreams with will tell u not to pursue them. The random most conversation with the random most people will make it the most beautiful conversation you ever had with any one – if it was about what really lives inside of your heart.
How often do you listen to your heart? Very commonly preached principle “listen to your heart” is most rarely practiced phenomenon I believe. Do you go ahead and do all that u like to do – Am not talking statistics here, so no point raising your arm and saying “I do”. The thing to nail is simple – what makes you kill what your heart yearns!! What’s the poison killing all that nurtures in your heart?
I think this poison is no such thing that can be directly associated with the thought homicide. It will take more than a Getafix to make a poison potion such as this that kills u from inside. Sometime it’s good to sit back and reflect – what is your poison really – what stops u from being u?
It’s good to be in love, it’s good to be attached, and it’s good to have that connect but in the bargain knowingly or unknowingly u end up losing yourself. You either become like the person u seem connected to or u’ll soon realize that u changed way too much – so much so that now u r no longer u...
We are like water when it comes to emotions and relationships. Without any hard work or a conscious effort you start molding, shaping & coloring like this other person – before u know bam! U have turned into someone that u never were, not the person that u remember being and so different from what you use to be & down within someone that u wouldn’t even want to be. So different from the familiar u that even u can’t relate to yourself… let alone anyone else.
The problem is that’s not it. You start getting addicted to this newness in your life. Somehow this all complicates in to a life baggage. Considering not all of us are brave enough to one fine day wake up and get rid of all that u have collected so far. The house, the material stuff, the people, the memories, the fears, the resentments, the love, the dreams… all…
Change is good, so no complaints. Also, u have been doing all this only to get better and be an exact fit into the mold that your dear ones have – of the perfect person. So good job done there, great achievement. As long as u r happy being perfect from the outside, and as long as u r able to make ur peace losing urself.
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Do u really miss the childhood... or do u miss urself!!
when you visit your happy place, or when someone asks you to go back to the best memory of your life, or when someone says what u are today is all about your upbringing, nurturing, experiences... why does it always go back to the childhood memories. Is your childhood the meatiest slice of the pizza called life? Why do people love songs that talk about going back to childhood, being young again, the days that were…strangely all that one can think of as the best time is in retrospect.
I think there is more to it, more than we see, more than we agree to make our peace with. I believe the reason is not a good bad ugly past, the reason is u - Who u use to be. Somehow we understand our self-much better in retrospect. You can always justify your doings in hindsight. all the mistakes u make, all the accolades u take, it’s all about accepting who you are, and why u are.
Today is mostly a function of your current needs, your current mood and your current vision of your future. Hence only when this today has passed into a yesterday u can think straight about it and make your peace with it. Have you ever thought why do some people boast so loudly - 'i have absolutely no regrets in life'. I wonder who are they really having this conversation with?? I think it’s a screaming reassurance to your own self. you want to keep telling yourself that u are a good person, all the good bad ugly that happened in your life couldn't have been more justified in anyone else's life!!.
As kids we could do all that we like, say what we like etc etc. no damage done. It’s always considered "cute" if the kid happens to say the most uninvited truth at the most critical hour in life… we can all laugh at it and move on. As grownups we all worry too much on the consequences, reputation, and a zillion more things. As kids all u could think of is - i feel so, i say so!
Sometimes i wonder was growing up really such a great idea, and sometimes i pray for a few people around me - wish they'd grow up - some day! It’s pretty simple. We like to hide away under the pretext of being a child or an adult – interchangeably and continuously keep blaming the other guy.
Then comes a time when u feel now that i have all the perfect stuff in life, i think i am settled - Material, social, emotional all that you hoard as possessions. In the process you start aligning yourself to your hoardings and start losing your own true self every minute. Then comes a time, when you start missing yourself. Is when it truly gets lonely…
Ever wondered - why is it so difficult for people to understand you, or maybe for you to explain yourself. More often than not you'll still manage to tell someone what u feel but has it always been that easy to tell why u feel the way u feel... It’s because now that u no longer are a kid u think of implications. You want to make sure u r understood, u r not misjudged and there is no damage to your reputation. And there thinking all of that, u have just deprived yourself of having yourself understood by someone, cause you were too pre-occupied with the consequences.
We all keep searching for that one person who really understands you the way you are, knows what u want even before u cud say it, someone u can be yourself with. The interesting thing is we all do find such a person / people. The problem is we outgrow them. After a point in time u end up creating a certain image with this person and then u don’t wanna change it. So u live with it. But u as a person never cease to change, so after this one person has fully understood u - u suddenly start realizing how vulnerable u r and there u go... back into ur shell!!! Starting to look all over again for someone who will understand u... !
The secret is we all like to say with all genuinity that i am a very simple person and it isn’t a tough thing to understand me - yet we all secretly take pride in showing our social personality to all and keep hiding our true selves behind it. We all want someone to figure us out, without explicitly saying so. Then starts the hypothesis of believing that each person around us has the intellect and the emotional bandwidth to understand us… Then begins the harassment of forced change in life... endless portrayal of wanting to ascend to unachievable levels of greatness, godliness!
finding that right someone is the consequence of well-crafted personal effort, u'll find most of the times adjusting with your own self, telling urself to be a different person than wat u are so that someone will someday know u more than u. strangely u'll realize only after a long time has passed that u have made so many alterations to ur own being that even u can’t relate to yourself anymore.
Sadly then u sit there to be discovered, to be read, to be understood…
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